I'm so sorry I haven't kept up with this blog more. I think about writing in it almost everyday, but these days our life is... challenging and busy and stressful. I'm sure that's always the case, but we've just been going through a lot of life changes ever since we moved from Colorado to Tennessee. (Have we told you about why we did that? Basically, Colorado is the greatest place in the world but all of our family is in TN and we decided that having them involved in your life was more important to us than living wherever your mom and I wanted to. TN is great and we don't dislike living here, but we'll take you to CO someday and you'll see the Rocky Mountains and the biggest blue sky ever and you just might understand.) Anyway...
My goodness where do I start? Let me start with this: You are the most beautiful and incredible creature I have ever spent time with. Everyday you just absolutely amaze me. Your personality is delightful. Your toothless, ear to ear grin melts my heart. And when you giggle... It fills my heart with a joy that I've never known. This past year has been the most exhausting year of my life, but you couldn't be more worth it.
You're almost a year old. A YEAR. You've gone from the most adorable little bald wiggle worm that couldn't do anything but sleep 23.5hrs a day and blink at me, to a crawling, walking, talking, smiling, laughing, holding her own bottle, pointing at things, splashing in the tub, sleeping through the entire night... baby adult. You're absolutely brilliant. And I'm so blessed to have you in my life. On the nights that I put you to sleep, I always thank God for you and for giving me the honor of taking care of you.
It's a Friday today and I'm tired. We're about to move to a new house and a new part of Nashville. It's exciting because this is what we've been working towards but it's all quite exhausting. Your mom is about to start going back to work and she's stressed about that. She was only going to take off 3mo after you were born, but we both decided that staying home and raising you was more important. Now that we're back in town with grandpa's and grandma's, she's going to start going back to work, part time for now. The grandmas are gonna watch you a couple days a week and you're going to go to a daycare the other days. I wish we could both stay at home and raise and take care of you forever, but this world doesn't really allow for that.
I've been saving pictures of you to put together someday. Should have it done by the time you're 30 :) This one has been my desktop background lately. I enjoy it so so much.
I love you soooo much, honey. Your mom has taken to calling you Chippy here and there. I think it's funny and weirdly fitting (weirdly because I've never even heard that name before). Oh! and you've really taken to spinning lately. I twirl you around and you just love it. I think you love being dizzy. Even after we stop spinning you like to shake your head back and forth. Anyway, can't wait to twirl you around this weekend :*
ps. One last thing, and maybe this is more for me… Up until now
when putting you to bed, I’d hold you on your back/side, cradling you, and I’d
rock you to sleep. Some nights you’d fight it and grab at my beard till you
fell asleep. But something happened recently where you don’t like being held
like that anymore. Now you sit upright in my arms and lay your head on my
shoulder. It makes me feel so special and loved… it’s hard to describe but I
love it. Then after praying I lay you down in your crib and you put your arms
above your head and I lay a blanket on you and you doze off. It’s one
of the best parts of my life.
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